anonymous Mar 2nd 2017 !⃝This song is about everything being fine the day after you commit suicide.
Imagine if you had bought a lottery ticket but committed suicide before the drawing and then it turned out to be the winning ticket the next day.
It seems like every day's the same
And I'm left to discover on my own
It seems like everything is gray
And there's no color to behold
(this is depression, also a common side effect of substance abuse withdrawal)
They say it's over and I'm fine again, yeah
Try to stay sober feels like I'm dying here
(They say its over, because he completed rehab and is suppose to be fine now but trying to stay sober is like dying)
And I am aware now of how
Everything's gonna be fine one day
(He is aware that they say he has completed the "program" in rehab and that they say everything is going to be fine now)
Too late, I'm in hell I am prepared now
Seems everyone's gonna be fine
One day too late, just as well
(but, he knows other people are "fine again" but feels it is too late for him because he is living in hell and he is prepared to end his own suffering)
I feel the dream in me expire
And there's no one left to blame it on
I hear you label me a liar
'Cause I can't seem to get this through
(depression again and no one to blame but himself for the choices he made to start using. When you have depression people say just get up and go for a walk or do a hobby and you will feel better, just get outside and get some fresh air but they don't understand it doesn't work that way with depression, so people think you aren't trying or you don't want to get better, it feels like people think you are a liar and you cant make people understand this)
You say it's over, I can sigh again, yeah
Why try to stay sober when I'm dying here
(You say I am better now because I am not using anymore but trying to stay sober is still like being in hell or dying)
And I am aware now of how
Everything's gonna be fine one day
Too late, I'm in hell
I am prepared now
Seems everyone's gonna be fine
One day too late just as well
(He is aware that they say if he stays on this path of sobriety that he will be fine one day, they say that to everyone, everyone is gonna be fine one day but it is one day too late for him. He feels it is too late for him and is prepared to end his own suffering)
And I'm not scared now
I must assure you
You're never gonna get away
And I'm not scared now
And I'm not scared now no
(He is not afraid to die to end his suffering and wants to assure you that you are never going to get away from death, we all die someday and he is not scared)
Seems everything's gonna be fine for me
For me, for myself
For me, for me, for myself
For me, for me, for myself
(He will be fine when dead, no more pain, no more suffering for me, for myself. Suicide is a very personal decision. Its about me, and ending my suffering. Don't say, think about your mom, think about your brother, etc, they will be fine one day, they will learn to live with it eventually, we all have to when someone dies)
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